Alpha

In the Bible God is described as "the Alpha & the Omega", the beginning and the end. He is my beginning. As I write this, I still get chills...breathe, breathe.

Since I had been shuttled back and forth so much, I hadn't gotten too close to many of the boys in my Kingdom Hall. I honestly didn't think any of them would give me the time of day. I knew they were all way cooler than me. My parents were weird, even by JW standards. I was even taller, even more awkward, and to top it off I was also wearing glasses. There was no way any boy would have thought I was cute. Especially not one of the cool boys.

There was this group of boys that had grown up together from birth. They were thick as theives and I would have loved for one of them to be my boyfriend. But what were the chances? And then he said hello, Alpha said hello-to me!

He was so fine, he had curly hair, big brown eyes, and a swagger that was palitable. A leader of the group was far from what I thought I deserved, but he seemed to like like me. Wow, I was lucky. I can honestly say I didn't know how we ended up together, but I remember the movies.

JW's aren't allowed to date really, especially at my age. But we organized these group outings where we went to the movies together. 10-15 of us horny, angst filled kids going to see summer blockbusters and anything rated PG. All the boys and girls that had crushes on eachother would arrange to sit next to eachother. I always tried to sit next to Alpha.

We would touch hands, share popcorn and make googly eyes. It was all so sweet and so cute looking back. We all tried to do things to extend the night, even though we all had curfews. If we were lucky we would get to go to some fast food place for a bite afterwards. This was like the debreifing time. All the girls would go off and gossip about their crushes. All the boys would group of and talk about the movie or basketball. But in the end we all had to go home by the time the street lights came on. Being a gentleman-in-training, he walked me home...with the whole group in tow.

As we came around the corner to my apartment my heart was beating out of my chest. God he was cute. And he was so damn cool! Was he gonna just walk away? Say goodnight and go? What the fuck? Wait, he's stopping. Everybody else is still walking. We're ALONE! He's so cute and he's coming closer. You think an alleged slut like me would know what to do, but this was all new. And there it was. The most beautiful kiss ever. Sure it was a peck, but time stopped for us. I was on my stoop, that I had sat on with my ripped tights years before, and I was stunned. I was officially in love. And I knew he was my man for life. Alpha was my beginning.